Sunset
Almost a year to the day I posted about writing on this blog again. I titled it Sunrise with a picture of the sunrise from the exact same balcony overlooking the exact same beach where we vacationed with the exact same friends as I am right now.
Here I sit on the balcony where I just watched a spectacular sunrise and thought, “oh this sunrise would be a good way to start the blog again.” Which is apparently the same exact thought I had last year and posted exactly twice after that and stopped. Again.
Maybe the sunrise isn’t what inspires me after all I thought to myself. I decided to change it up and focus on the sunset instead. I could wax poetic and use reverse psychology and think about the sun setting on my fear. The end of the day for fear. Go boldly into the night. The last day I let fear control my words. While all of this sounds good and inspiring, I know myself well enough to know that this will not be the case.
The battle with fear about my writing will continue. It will be a challenge to face with every sunrise and every sunset. It will take the hard work of showing up every day whether here or in my notebook. It can’t matter to me whether anyone reads my words or likes my words. It can’t be about approval or recognition that I’m a writer. None of that can matter. What matters is that I live my one life being faithful to my calling, from sunrise to sunset and sunset to sunrise.
It has to be this way for you too. Whatever your battle is, you have to show up daily. You can’t let fear, no matter the source, stop you. Your voice may be rusty but you must sing the song in your heart. Be bold. Be courageous.
From sunrise to sunset and sunset to sunrise…this is me, starting over…again. May it be the same for you.